New Girl in the City.

Well, the name sounds familiar right? But the matter will be different all together. The name might have been taken from Wake up Sid! but the feelings attached to this piece of writing will be so different. Ayesha played by Konkana in Wake up Sid! might be feeling the same thing that I will be jotting down but Ayesha was already from a city called Kolkata and Me, I am from a small town called Jamshedpur.

I got placed on 22nd May only and started working with the prestigious Future Group. I was into Insurance Sector and trust me when I joined I was enjoying my work. You had to meet so many clients and persuade them for a policy but slowly slowly pressure was bounding and I was pressurized from everywhere. I was planning to change my job and got a breakthrough when I got a call from Futurestep saying that they would like to conduct an interview with us. So I readily accepted this. Futurestep was a brand in itself and to be associated with this huge firm will be a learning step for me. So, my interview went well and I got through. My happiness knew no bounds. I was happy and sad both at the same time. Happy because I got through this and sad because I was somehow attached to KIIT and Bhubaneshwar so leaving all these was naturally little difficult for me.

September 22, 2015- I had my flight to Pune from Ranchi. I was going to take a big leap. From being a small town, I always had one wish: To work independently in a big city. Futurestep gave me that opportunity. I reached Pune and I called one of my friends Trisha straightaway. Finally, I got a chance to know her better and be with her because I had always adored her. So, I shifted with Trisha and my plan was to shift to a flat after somedays. But one day she only asked me if I would like to move in with her and I was ecstatic.

September 24, 2015- First day in Office. Excited to death. Nervous too. Was waiting for the day to get over so that I can explore a little part of Pune i.e. Koregaon park. Well, this place is full of life especially where I was living. It was considered to be most hip and happening places in Pune and pretty expensive too. I was dumbstruck by humility and warmth that Pune people showed even to strangers. The best part about this place that people here our least bothered and they don't interfere in each others life very much.

Pune- For a small town girl like me, this place astounded me. People are warm here no doubt but the best part of this city is that it can never run out of food (but cannot beat Kolkata on this one though). You have so many options here. One can eat Misal Pau and can even have sumptious Mexican and Thai meal it all depends on your pocket size. And man, Punekars are in love with Bakeries and pastries and cakes I think. You tend to spot minimum 10 bakeries in one lane and believe me all are equally delicious because Punekars bake it with love.

Keeping food and people aside, Pune has some really happening places to hang out and party with friends. You have something like Hard Rock Cafe to something like Swig and Classic Rock Cafe. You have The Westin and you also have something like Prem's. Coming to Pune has changed my life for good. I have grown more independent and more mature. I have been loaded with more responsibilities for sure but this city has accepted me in such a short span of time. This city has given me friends for a lifetime. Friends whom I call family. This city has given me experiences. Its just been like 4 months and I have learnt so much. If living in a big city, you need to depend on your own self.

I am here for a long time I hope. And this city never fails to intrigue me. It has always been a roller coaster ride for me. I am loving the moments spent here and will continue to enjoy more because this place is very near to Mumbai and Goa too. Pune has given me everything in these 5 months and I am sure it will give me more in coming years. Thank you Pune and Punekars for making my life so happening. I will always be indebted to this city.

Love,
Smita Ranjan

Once Upon A Time In Love

There he was sitting and staring at her,
Thinking of the sunshine which her smile spread,
Looking at her, he smiled to himself,
He was not perfect for her,
As she was so fine all the time,
Her  perfect lips,
Her sway in the hips,
He just stalked her,
He looked at  her eyes,
Hoping that he sees himself in them,
He stared at her pearlies,
Hoping that he  was the  reason behind it,
She  was musical in her own way,
She was  a mystery unsolved,
She was the love song,
She looked  at him in a way he didn't knew,
She  knew he stared, she smiled for him,
He hoped that  she   knew,
What she meant to him,
He wanted to be the song  she sang,
He wanted to be  the talk she gossiped,
She talked a lot, talked  a lot about him,
She sang the song which he  heard when the lights were dim,
He prayed  for her every night,
He wished  for her to be with him just tonight,
She prayed for him every  night,
She wished to be beside him at every sight,
He smiled at  her,
She smiled at  him,
And they knew  that Love had fallen upon them.

Love,
Smita Ranjan

NUMB NIGHT!!

The clock strikes 2,
I am awake,
Not because I am not sleepy,
I am awake because I cannot sleep,
Inner demons are fighting to come out,
Catching up with the moment,
I try to calm them down,
I am unaware of the waves created in me,
I am unaware of the sounds that is being built in me,
I am unaware of the soul that is adjusting in me,
I lay there,
Looking at the clock,
Listening to its tick tock,
I move to get to the other side of the bed,
Laying there on the colder side,
Made me feel numb,
There was an eeriness about the night,
There was peace in my fright,
I didn't know where to go to,
I just lay there,
Taking in all the coldness in me,
I felt a sensation,
A sensation of a rush flowing through me,
A rush that made me flutter,
A rush that made me shudder,
I am still,
The night is moving,
And because the night is moving,
My numbness is going still.

Prince In Shining Armour!!

Today was the day when I just stood there,
Waiting for you,
Waiting for you to return to the place where you once stood,
Searching for you,
Searching in the hope to find you still standing there,
Finding you,
Finding you in a place where your kisses still linger on my lips,
I can't see you anywhere,
But you are there, everywhere,
You don't answer when I call,
But your voices echo to my voice call,
You don't see what I want you to see,
But you see things which you want to see,
I speak, you listen,
I speak, you stare,
You listen to the words unspoken,
You stare at the beauty so numb,
You sit with the pride of a lion,
You smile like a prince in his shining Armour,
The beauty of the night,
Shines with your presence in the light,
You are invisible to me,
But I can feel you near me,
You might not always turn up for me,
But I keep waiting like its meant to be,
I have a smile that twist and turn,
You have a laugh which has a deep curve,
I wait for you,
Wait as long as you don't show up,
I sit there looking at the face that stared back at me,
I look at the water swelled up in the eyes,
I just stand there wishing for you,
Wishing that some day you might be the one,
My Prince in Shining Armour..!!

Ramblings of Lifeless Body!!!

You are just standing there,

Looking at the things around you,

Wondering whether they can hear you, 

Or see your smile or your pain,

These things which you see,

Have a life,

The life of their own,

They have their own world,

The world which awakes, 

When we sleep,

The midnight trail which we forget,

They follow,

Follow it to the hollowness of the darkness which prevails,

The silence of the dark,

They are the noise of the period,

They are the ones with eyes wide awake,

The eyes which is cold and numb,

Which conveys nothing but only fear,

The eyes which has the power to speak,

Remains quiet,

The serenity of the night,

Is disrupted by the paranoia of tomorrow's day,

The illusion of night being calm,

Is disillusioned by the uncertainty that it has,

The water seems disturbed,

As if trying to keep shut the devil inside it,

You don't have a clue,

The things we see lifeless,

Are seeing us as lifeless,

We don't always want to hear these things,

But these things are nothing,

But the ramblings of the inner lifeless things..!!

Some one to care for!!!!

You are sipping on the coffee....
Sitting peacefully and wondering..
Wish if someone was there to share that coffee with you..
Sitting beside you and complementing how good you look with that oily hair...
Just staring you sip the coffee....
no matter how you dress and how you look..
Smiles at the way you spill the coffee on his shirt and then removing it with lots of sorry as company..
Makes you comfortable just by saying that "its ok sweetheart! it hardly matters to me!"
You wish that someone is there when you feel all lonely...
Just to hold your hand and say "I am there for you always"
When you are happy you wish that someone is there to share that happiness....
You come all tired after a day's work..
And you wish that someone messages you asking you "how was the day"
You are on your sick bed..
wish there was someone who would sit by your side through the night..
wish someone called up and said "I am so worried about you please take care of yourself"

Suddenly you come back to reality..
Realising that that someone maybe just a dream afterall..
He may never care for you..
What you do...
How are you..
Where are you..
Maybe you have chosen to love the wrong person afterall..
Maybe You deserve someone who would atleast care for you..
Maybe its time you stop loving someone so much...
Maybe its time to stop hurting yourself too much..

Its just a wish after all.
A wish that somewhere someone should care for your existence...

the feelings of first love

LOVE-a word which cannot be expressed by words, it can only be felt with the hearts. Many of us have experienced this feeling, this feeling is just out of the world. When you are in love you feel like you have some importance attached to yourself and you are not at all worthless. Here I am not talking about the love of a girl and a boy,here love also means the love which we get from our family and friends. But today Love has been defined in an all together different context.
                          The feelings of LOVE is first experienced by us when we come into this earth through our mother's womb. This LOVE is experienced by us when we are in our mother's womb itself an finally when we come into this world we eventually get the love of our parents. This first feeling of LOVE is just unexplainable and cannot be defined. It has the power to fight any problems of our life and sometimes can even save our lives. This love has so much power and strength.
                             When we start going to school, we experience love in a totally different form. Love given by our teacher's and friends are way to different from the love that we get from our parents. Teachers are like second mother and father to us and that is the way that all are taught in order to give them respect. When we enter the school premises with all kinds of fears in our hearts and with wet eyes, the teachers are then come into picture of giving us love and make us feel comfortable and free.We also have certain expectations from the people who belong to our age group. We want them to accept us as we are and not as they are and once we get adjusted with them they become our moral supports known as FRIENDS. Friends give us the love that we always want throughout our life apart from the love given by our parents. They are like pillars when you are away from your parents and support you and save you from the external dangers of the world. Friends and parents are like life support system without which an individual cannot live.
                               After coming to a much higher platform of life,THE COLLEGE, the meaning of love changes. During this time period very few people get their soul mates and fall in TRUE LOVE but for others love is associated with physical intimacy or more appropriately called SEX. The feeling shown by college students for their better halves are just a road to maximum satisfaction and pleasure. College life is a very crucial and delicate stage for the students and they get involved in all kinds of things like boozing and all and the meaning of love also changes for them. Love loses its purity at this stage of life for many but for few it always remains the pure truth in them. These students totally believe in it and they tend to be happy with their lovers in college and in future as their husband/wife. But the numbers of these students are very few and less.
                                 When a girl or a boy gets married he/she enters the new phase of their lives and with a whole new beginnings. They are nervous and sometimes naive in these matters. The value of love increases when a couple is married. The love which one experiences here is totally new and wonderful. The bond of love increases as they spend more time with each other and this love is shown when they have a baby. The incoming of baby brings in the birth of new love and new attractions.
                                      So we see how we explore new feelings of love at every point of life. Love is an integral part of our life we should'nt be making fun of it or disrespecting it. We should enjoy it as it comes our way.







 With Loads Of LOVE,
Smita Ranjan